morning pill? go to drug store within 72 hours. no more worries!

from reading Rachel Maddow's blog....



so the fear of teen sex cults rejected this bill. It is definitely worse if women/teenage girls can't have a way to be independent or take a responsibility on their own behavior but pray for Jesus to let him forgive her.
Doesn't praying for Jesus to get rid of her baby that she "accidentally" got sounds more cultish than taking morning pill to take the responsibility as a woman? Sometimes, I feel that the politics IS kinda cultish, isn't it?

http://maddowblog.msnbc.msn.com/_news/2011/12/07/9274374-more-plan-b-over-the-counter-no

many experiences here.
http://www.good.is/post/plan-b-an-oral-history/

organizing my thoughts

Ok, so many things happened and many things just refreshed me for 2 weeks or so.
My life started change 180 degree since one thing happened.

In a good way.

1st, I got a hair cut. I feel like I got rid of many of things bothering me for long time.
Now I have medium short hair,. I like it.

2nd, finally started to really reading the book "happiness project" that my besty David recommended to me.

3. I was at class of Human Geography the other day. my teacher asked to all of us "what is the ultimate goal as a human being?"
then I was kinda surprised how many of American students answered to have a happy family as their dream.
family first... hum. I guess that system doesnt match with me..... My goal? "live my life with my own way"

4, I was talking with other Japanese student who is here as an exchange student. She is my favorite since she came here. We've talked a lot about love and life. Sometimes, we talked like 4 hours in a car after I gave her a ride. by talking with her, I really realized how happiest family I have and I have grown up.

She said "I've seen my mom crying so many times because pf my dad...... probably that's why I want to have a happy family life in my later life. I just wanna have a happy family. that's kinda my goal in my future... "

I 've never thought so. I've been having a lot of different dreams but never had a dream to have a happy family. I think that's because having a happy family was not unusual thing. It was quite a normal thing for me. It was not a dream just something comes with my life.
Then I reached the conclusion that more American students have a dream to have a happy family because they had a such a hard time as family in childhood. There may exist the relationship with the high divorce rate in the U.S.

5. in 2 weeks, I'm going to Mexico! woo hoo I literally can't wait to get out of this place. I like cincy but I always need like adventurous thing. Being and settling down at one place is easy and comfy but doesn't give me the exciting feeling. Of Course, being in Cincy for 2 yeears, I got to know many people and got many influence from others. that's a probably the good side of settling down at one place. You know many people
I need an adventure. can't wait.
yea i know i have to study more spanish... i'm just procrastinating lol I will :)


This weekend, my friends and I are going to cabin for one night :)
it's gonna be fun time.... :)

time management

Being sick is such a waste of my time. That's what I have been felt for a week last week.

It's been a long week for me. When you are sick, you don't want to get out of your bed..... so bad that I have classes that I CAN'T miss. Especially the statistics class. It is really hard class. I'm not a Math person anyways...

so I had to go to classes not to miss what professor teach me. I know it's gonna be a disaster if I missed the class even one time.

Had so many things going on this weekend.
Friday was veterans day, so I did homework and slept a lot :) That was probably the day I got most sleep time since school started.

On Saturday, I had tutoring japanese to 7yrs old girl. I wanted to let her shop some items in Japanese supermarket. Through that she can learn some Japanese and products.
I met up with her dad and her brother there, we went to shopping together.
It was fun. The happiest thing after that was her dad told me that she said " I want to live in Japan someday when Keine(her brother) become 10 years old or so."
She hated Japanese and feel hesitate to talk in Japanese. She was going to Japanese school in KY one time a week. Since the school is only one time a week, it has a huge amount of homework.That paranoid her literally. She understand when she hear it but doesn't want to talk.

So her dad wanted to let her feel like "Japanese is fun!" through my tutoring.

She is not really a serious and easy student to teach like facing a desk and write...
It was pretty hard time for me to let her concentrate.
I sometimes struggle to get her attention even during tutoring.

I am so glad she started feel liking Japanese again. I feel so happy.... 報われてる気がする。I'm gonna do my best for her! :)
I always have to remind myself that my tutoring is not for study but for fixing her feeling to Japanese.

yes.

Went to bowling in New Port as an event for Japan American Society Greater Cincinnati Young Professional. We got 8 people out and had a lot of fun. The photos are available below.

then had dinner with my bf and his family. Went to club at night with my friends:) It was good weekend. After the fun time is study time as always.... yes,.

I now have a lot of hw to do since I was sick last week.
gotta catch up :)

JOB FAIR today.

就職なんてまだしないって思ってた。 
まだいいって思ってた。まだ私は世界をいろいろ行きたいんだって。でも将来の道を決めるときはその後の道のこともある程度考えて行動することが大切なんだなって思った。 
特に自分のやりたいこと、やりたくないことがある程度決まっているなら、ある程度、 
これをしたら→これができなくなる。とか。、 
これをしなければ→これをしなきゃいけなくなるって。 

はっきりとこれをしたくないってわかってるなら、将来それをしなくていいような道を歩むことが熟考の末の道なんだって思った。 

そして、私の熟考の上で選んだ道を自分が信じて進んでいくことが大切なんだな。 

私、あせってた。ともだちがすっごい就職に本気だし、あたしのメジャーでできなさそうに見えることってたくさんあるから、あせってて、｢アメリカで就職活動をして、アメリカで仕事をみつけること」と｢アメリカで就職活動をして、日本で就職をすること」の違いをすっかり無視していた。 

今回2時間運転して、やってきたJOB　FAIRにこれてよかった。 

思ってたものと違ったけど、人と話して、インタビューみたいなことして、自分がこれができる、これがしたいってはっきりいってから、わかった。 
自分がやりたいこととかわかってたけど、口に出して言うと、また考えさせられるなって。 

少なくとも私は自分を見つめることがうまくできてるから、っていうか、今まで日常のようにやってきてるから、これがしたい、これが得意、こういうことができるってのがすぐいえる。いいことだと思う。 

アメリカでの就職にはそれが大切なんだ。 

日本の就職は育てて、長い目で見てあげようって会社が多いけど、アメリカの会社はやってくうちの覚えてくでしょう。やりたいことはなに？やってみたいことはなに？どんなことが得意ってのが一番大切なんだな。 
つねにいろんな経験から、何が学べたって、これが学べたって考える考え方が大切なんだな。 


いろんなことがまなべる就職活動。 

つける仕事に就くんじゃなくって、やりたい仕事に就けるようにどういう風に自分をアピールするかが大切なんだ。 
一見、できなさそうにみえても、自分のやりたいこと、できることと仕事をどういうふうにうまく説明するかが大切。 

同じく就職活動でがんばっている同僚よ、いつでもすかいぷしようね＾＾ 

同じ同士。 
自分のやりたいこと、できること、どういう風にいかせるのか、最適な仕事をみつけるためには、人と話すことが一番だと思いました。 

とれたしごとではなく、とった仕事にする。 

それでは 


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Dream? yea about dreams.

What kind of dream you have?

What do you want to be in next 10 years? or maybe 5 years?

What is something you want to do before you settle down in your life with having family and a house?

I have many things that I want to do before I actually get settled down. Then what I realized today was all of my dreams are too abstract. Any of them were specific enough to keep holding my dream and my will.

http://kenmogi.cocolog-nifty.com/qualia/2011/10/post-19a7.html
*sorry for people who can't read Japanese. but basically this blog is talking about how you have to use your time efficiently.
One day is 24 hours. It's same for everyone.

It's just totally up to you how you use those time.
I just realized today
1. I need to make more specific dream : at where, when, how, whom with, what I want to do.
2. To use my time more efficiently.

I can't write specifically... but I had a time to think about my future after the graduation: job or do something I wanted to do.

The opportunity or... I would say possibility to get a job came up to me today.

I was stuck in the confusion and the doubt of what I really want to do....

The reason I stuck in those situation is because I never make a specific dream that I want to come true. I have many of vague one not specifically with when and how.

That's what I need to make in next a few months.

Time to make a specific goals which is going to be starts.

To save my time, I will end my blog today even tho I have a lot of things want to write.

I will study tonight till 4 am then will go to sleep. Pretty busy day but still want to use my time efficiently.

-turezuretomtom

Career EXPO

went to Career expo yesterday. It was the first time to go those kind of job hunting event for me. 


I was no idea what I should talk with human resource people and recruiters. 


so First I went to the resume check section and got to talk with one Chinese -American lady, She checked my resume and asked me if I want to work in Japan. 
I was happy that I could say no without thinking anything. One year ago, I didn't even know where I wanna work at. I was glad that I;'m getting answers for my future little by little. 
But on the other hand, I realized I really really don't know what I wanna be and what I wanna work for. 
She said my objectives could be more stronger. I know it could. but I knew the reason why I can't write a stronger objective. 
I just don't know what I want to do. 


I try not to get depressed and lost about my future... I'm trying to think I will figure out someday on my own pace. telling myself that it will be ok and not to compare with anyone's life and mine. 


I re-realized that job hunting and getting know what you really want to do is to fight with yourself and not  to ignore the importance of my life. It's actually easy to get money if I just get job whatever I got offered. but I have a persistent feeling not to waste my life for something I don't want to  do which makes me think about my life a lot and makes me depressed sometimes. It's a hard time,. but this is not avoidable if I stick with my own policy. 


only way is probably just to be positive as much as I can. 


My heart is chaos from thinking way too much and having a lot of options i can take.  




I hope someday it will settle down... it might be a long way to go. 
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あーこのごろ落ち気味。 
なんでだろう、なんかいろんなこと考えちゃって。 

自分では人に「自分の人生だから、自分のペースで」ってよく言ってるのに、その自分のペースを乱している自分自身がいる。 

なんか余計なこと気にしちゃって、いろいろつらい。 

１．考えずぎ 
２．もうちょっとNYに友達が必要。(友達いなさすぎ） 
３．度胸がない 
４．オハイオが恋しすぎる。 


就職の説明会じゃないけど、いろんな企業のあつまるフォーラムにいってきた。 
よかった。いってよかったとおもってる。 
今回そのイベントに参加して、自分が本当に何になりたいのか、まだぜんぜんわかってないんだなって思った。 
この夏のインターンのおかげでちょっと将来のこんな感じはつかめてきたけど、それ以上がわからない。 
あせる気持ちもあるし、いろんな道がありすぎて、どれを最優先にしようか決められない。 
それにひとつを得れば失うものもあって、失いたくないのに、自分が冒険をするから失わなきゃいけない存在になってしまう。 

その選択をせずに、ほかの選択肢を選べば失わない。でもそのかわりに自分の冒険はできなくなる。 

履歴書の添削をしてもらったときに聞かれた。 
「日本に帰って仕事をしたいのですか？」 
はっきりとNOといえた自分がいてちょっとうれしかった。 

やっぱり、ここに残るか、日本以外で働きたいって思ってるんだなって心から感じた。 
でも、同時に、アメリカの履歴書で一番大切なのはOBJECTIVE(総合的な目的みたいな。OOなことがしたいってのを抽象的にでも、かつ具体的な職を想像させるように書く。）がうまくかけない。 
それが欠けない理由は、やはり自分が、ちゃんと何になりたいかわかってないからかけないんだって実感した。 

わからないね。。。 


精神安定のために禅でも学ぼう・・・ 

many things in a few days :)

ok so so many things in a few days.

 verizon's workers are striking .... this is maybe what I like about USA because people are tend to be more insisting their opinion than people in Japan.

A boy was playing the piano in times square subway station. He will be a big one later :)
I was almost buy his CD...
 it was really good..

 A guy was painting on the street near Columbia University
I wanna go back there to see how it went.... but oh shoot... it rained so hard last night.... ah

 Nagoya curl lol(Nagoya maki)

yea that's what we need more conscious about, man, USA!

 button and needle...? peobably some company like sawing stuff was established near here...lol

 at Korean club Circle

 dance starts now

 oh yea McDonald in Chinalol jk
it's just in China town lol

 at dim sum in Chinatown  I've heard this is one of top 5 restaurants in Chinatow in NYC

 ooo.... chicken finger... it was not really what I thought it's like lol

new dress!!! YEAAAAA

yeaaa!!! JAPANESE RICE COOKER!!!HELL YEAHHH

 at Iroha Japanese restaurant near times square.
was kinda expensive but I didn't pay so it's all good. this calpico grape liquor was really good!

oh yea it was really yummmyyyy

marketing job

so I finally started my new internship in Table For Two.

What I do is mostly marketing which use the strength of my character: can be talking with anyone friendly, not to hesitate to talk anyone I just met

I go around restaurants or cafes in NYC which is PLENTY OF....

and ask if they are interested in introducing TFT system.

WHICH IS REALLY REALLY FUN FOR ME.

Walking around, talk with random people and ask about their restaurant is actually so much better than just sitting on a chair and typing PC keyboard.


I really like going around NYC and find a new restaurant and jump in there to talk with a manager.

most of the time, the manager is not there so I usually have to get a number or email to set up appointment.

however, getting feel like maybe-this-is-what-i-wanna-do-in-my-future. ...

I still struggling to find what I want to do but I can feel that I'm getting that point when I finally figure out what I wanna do for my life.

recently reading a book called "DELAYING THE REAL WORLD"which is recommended from my boss. He read this book when he was 23rd and shocked by this stories,
http://www.delayingtherealworld.com/


I think I'm feeling same way with him except this stories is not really surprising since those stories are something I was considering for long time. In terms of pushing me to decide something unusual, this book is definitely giving me a lot of options for my future.

The more I think about my future, it's getting really big big big and full of options.... I decided not to think about sacrifices for now.,
When it happens, it happens.
Let things flow,  let things go...this is what my besty told me when I was in the spiral of deep thinking

I was reading this book, and a guy start talked to me in subway "Is this book saying about teaching English abroad or something ?"
I was surprised that someone started to talk to me in NYC. lol It happened a lot in seattle but not in NYC. NYC, in my impression, people are just walking toward whatever they are looking for. I rarely talk with random people unless I do marketing job.

He was actually in Sapporo, Hokkaido in Japan for three month for study abroad in summer. Now his path is to go to South Korea as a English teacher. I wanted to talk with him more but we both had to get off train and he had to go to somewhere. I gave him my business card, hope he contacts with me so I can probably get to know him more! Not any love emotion , just curious for his life..

I found a couple of interesting shops or restaurants I want to visit in future on my way of marketing job today.
here is some

@Doughnut Plant NYC
Doughnut store

 pastry store
smelled so good
@ Chelsea

 Coffee shop.
The decoration of inside was insisting that they are care about coffee beans maker, African farmers. but when I asked some stuff about store to the worker, he didn't know that much and couldn't answer.
The education of worker is the most important thing. Especially if the store has a policy that the store wants to proud of, it is necessary to train workers till they have a basic knowledge to answer what customers ask for their store.... I was disappointed.
too decorated but the Frappechino was good.
In terms of education of workers, probably Starbucks is better.

 A healthy cafe Soy cafe, they sells interesting salad.
I will go there and try to talk with the manager about my NPO program when I go around Greenwitch again,

 something interesting... Tea...?

 oh from here, it's just a random photos I have on my phone. Supposed to upload everyday on fb but got tired to do it. so gonna just put it all together.
This is a drawing I wrote on the letter to my family lol hahaha

 cat!! miss him so much. Eggyyyy

 maybe I might wanna read this when I get done my  reading.... well I'm reading three books currently lol nvm

 Jamba Juice!!!! MY FAVORITE!!

 IDK what this car means.... is it a company? I just thought it's interesting .lol

 ohh this guy is always in Astor Pl  under the 14 union square.
He is playing good as my friend said.lol I still don't understand but his songs makes me want to dance at the freaking hot platform

 club!!! this is Asian club Circle
This was the night I thought I don't wanna drink anymore tequila.
I still cannot take tequila shots since this night. IT WAS ROUGH NIGHT lol